grrrrrrrrrr December 22, 2008

i love my mom.
she just knows how to push those buttons.

seems like everything i have to say lately she snickers at. its kinda rude. she wants us to come down tomorrow (We are going to their house for christmas) and i said we are really busy putting finishing touches on the house before scott leaves and scott has some stuff to do onbase. told her we will be down wedsday. lets just say that she made me feel awful for not coming down tomorrow. ugh! scott and i want alone time and we need to get alot of stuff done. you’d think shed understand since she is an airforce wife also but nope. whatever i do i get a snort and snickered at.

i told her my hips hurt so bad, that i just feel so sore all the time. and i get “oh stop being such a baby”. GR! if i’m complaining because of pain that means its bad. i have fucking endo and i know what pain is.

yesterday she tried to talk me into just sending scott off to the airport alone. when i said i didn’t want to, and i’d want to see him off. she gave me such a hard time.

if theres something i want for the baby “oh thats ugly i hope you don’t plan on getting that” “thats alot of money, are you sure you guys would want to spend that much?” “why don’t you just buy used baby stuff” “a convertible crib ugh what a waste of money” “logan, i don’t like that name. you guys should pick something else” “you want to get a bassinet play pin? what waste of money”

this is what happens when my dad comes back from deployment, my mom becomes a pain in the ass instead of someone i can talk to. what ever i do, apparently, is ridiculous and below her.

all i hear is “blah blah blah i have nothing nice to say about anything”

ugh i can’t wait to be in the states. December 21, 2008

i’ve been here for 10 years (went to utah in between times). i’m SO ready to get the hell out of here.
i’m SO sick that there is nothing to do on weekend nights when you just want to do something that doesn’t involve drinking.

so fucking bored.

waiting for the day.. December 21, 2008

i lay on the couch and wait to see if the baby will move. LOL i do this everyday, all the time. i can’t wait for it to happen.

i dont know if i already experienced it or not…but i was watching My Girl a week ago and a funny part came up. i was laughing and i felt like a flutter below my belly button. i don’t know if it was gas or actually the baby.

i know one thing though, the baby loves stretching out moms uterious early in the morning making me get up. LOL.

ugh i LOVE my mom December 19, 2008

so i was hoping my grandma would of been born in september because i like the middle name sapphire. thats the birthday stone for sept. and of course its not. she was born in january.
so i told my mom about the disney connection (my grandma was a disney fanatic and aurora is based off of sleeping beauty), and of course what does my mom do, she laughs at me. says i’m ridiculous. i told her that i thought my grandma would like that name. so my mom says “just because grandma liked disney doesn’t mean she’d want you to name your kid tinkerbelle”.
……………………………………
i can not win with this woman!

what do you guys think??? December 19, 2008

i was looking up middle names still
and i came across this—
aurora sapphire geddings, you like???

15 weeks today! December 19, 2008

woooooooooooooooooooooooo!
25 days till we find out the sex of the babuh.

so for the past night i’ve had this haunting feeling that i’m carrying a boy. because ever since i found out i was pregnant i accidentally refer to the baby as “he or him”. . its never accidentally “her”.

i was wondering if this has happened or is happening to anyone else???
its just weiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiird.
but im still seeing the name aurora EVERYWHERE.

with the hair coloring December 19, 2008

i’ve decided not to do it.

god knows i would like to, but i’d rather just play it safe. instead i’m treating myself with bumble and bumbles hair powder, this stuff is SO awesome. its for girls with oilly hair that don’t want to wash their hair everyday (since its bad for your hair). and it will cover some of my highlights so guess i’m going with that.
its EXPENSIVE. but i looove it.

i’m so very very jealous. December 18, 2008

theres alot of things i’m going to be missing out on since i’m moving 2 months after the babuh is born. :[. it makes me really really sad.

like i won’t be able to paint the nursery. something i’ve dreamed about doing since i was little playing with babydolls. won’t be able to do it once we move because i wouldn’t want the baby breathing in any fumes. i look at all these cute nurseries online and i’m SO jealous. i don’t care that the baby will soon out grow it, it feels very important to me to have a cuuuute nursery. my mom laughs at me when i tell her this stuff, which makes me feel selfish but i want it all. :[. scott doesn’t get it. but then he doesn’t get much. lol.

god only knows how long we are going to be living out of suit cases instead of a home :[.

baby shower. December 18, 2008

i just wanted to let everyone know, some people have been asking so thats why i’m posting this.

i’m not going to have my babyshower till mayish. i wanted to do it sooner, but i really want scott to be here.
when it comes around that time i’m going to be asking who is going and what not for my mom (shes the planner). i want to try to have it at the teen/computer center (in that huge empty room) but we will probably have it at my house because i doubt alot of people are going to come. also husbands are invited! LOL not that any of this matters right now, its a long way away but eh i’m bored! lol.

hair coloring. December 18, 2008

i want to dye my hair SO bad. my highlights i got before i got pregnant are now like halfway down my head….lol so it looks funky. i want to dye it a darker shade of brown but ugh! no one knows the effects it has on babies. i heard blonde causes cancer and black is straight up bad (pft that is so true, my hair started falling out from me dying it black). i might just go get highlights once i’m over at my moms. maybe some dark browns and carmels. i don’t know though

scott says he doesn’t want me to do it and i understand why. but ugh! i want to be a cute preggo lady!!! lol.

snot fair! lol.
jk. i’m just happy to be frickin pregnant and shouldn’t even be complaining about this stuff. *Sigh*