to watch him walk away.
to let him go.
i miss him so much already.
this is going to be so hard for me. hes the only one i’ve ever totally trusted and loved. hes not here to tell me its okay or to tell me he loves me. it just hurts going through our house and remembering this morning. how he snuck in the shower with me and how we laid on the couch together.
i wish i would of held on to him longer. kissed him longer.
the hormones are def. not helping. i feel like i’m losing it.
i miss my bestfriend.
I’m so sorry sweetie, I can only imagine how hard this is going to be for you. I just hope that time will pass quickly!
I wish I could say it gets easier… It doesn’t really… but the first time I hear his voice when he lets me know that he has made it safe… that is when I feel a little better. A calmness comes over me and then as soon a the phone call is over I am okay until the next wave of hormones come along. You are already a strong person, just by seeing him off. Now when you finish this out you will be able to help those women that will go through this after you.
Enjoy your pregnancy… take pictures for him (I sent belly pics… LOL and naughty belly pics LOL, He liked them) I made us quizzes to get to know little things that we thought we knew about each other but really we found out new cool things about each other… Funny after 5 years of marriage there is still more to learn about my best friend!
It will get better, I promise. You’re a strong person and this is only going to make you stronger. Keep your chin up, okay? You have sooooo much to look forward to. I love you and am here for you whenever you need
look the reality is. it’s not going to get better, because he won’t be there and that just suck. but you are a strong person and you have an amazing baby on the way. the best part of scott is swimming around in that belly of yours. talk to your belly. bond with what part of scott you have left. i know it’s hard but you can do this and you are too bitchy to let this defeat you. i love you