i’m so very very jealous. December 18, 2008

theres alot of things i’m going to be missing out on since i’m moving 2 months after the babuh is born. :[. it makes me really really sad.

like i won’t be able to paint the nursery. something i’ve dreamed about doing since i was little playing with babydolls. won’t be able to do it once we move because i wouldn’t want the baby breathing in any fumes. i look at all these cute nurseries online and i’m SO jealous. i don’t care that the baby will soon out grow it, it feels very important to me to have a cuuuute nursery. my mom laughs at me when i tell her this stuff, which makes me feel selfish but i want it all. :[. scott doesn’t get it. but then he doesn’t get much. lol.

god only knows how long we are going to be living out of suit cases instead of a home :[.

baby shower. December 18, 2008

i just wanted to let everyone know, some people have been asking so thats why i’m posting this.

i’m not going to have my babyshower till mayish. i wanted to do it sooner, but i really want scott to be here.
when it comes around that time i’m going to be asking who is going and what not for my mom (shes the planner). i want to try to have it at the teen/computer center (in that huge empty room) but we will probably have it at my house because i doubt alot of people are going to come. also husbands are invited! LOL not that any of this matters right now, its a long way away but eh i’m bored! lol.

hair coloring. December 18, 2008

i want to dye my hair SO bad. my highlights i got before i got pregnant are now like halfway down my head….lol so it looks funky. i want to dye it a darker shade of brown but ugh! no one knows the effects it has on babies. i heard blonde causes cancer and black is straight up bad (pft that is so true, my hair started falling out from me dying it black). i might just go get highlights once i’m over at my moms. maybe some dark browns and carmels. i don’t know though

scott says he doesn’t want me to do it and i understand why. but ugh! i want to be a cute preggo lady!!! lol.

snot fair! lol.
jk. i’m just happy to be frickin pregnant and shouldn’t even be complaining about this stuff. *Sigh*

i’m going crazy!!! December 18, 2008

in my house! scott and i have been so busy that i rarely get to go anywhere anymore. i wish my car was here goddammit. the guy hasn’t even contacted us back about it, meaning its still stateside (insert VERY angry face here). scotts training today and tomorrow from 7:30 to 5:30. so that def means there is no going anywhere today or tomorrow.

i feel restless.
and very sick of the internet (as it being my only means to the outside world).

i would go for a walk but its so cold and rainy, i don’t want to chance getting sick =/.
this sucks ass.

it doesn’t help with all this anticipation. with scott leaving next week (not really anticipating this but you know what i mean) and finding out the babies sex…….
i feel alittle loony. =/.

one good thing though December 18, 2008

my acne is almost completely gone! so i get to take full body pictures soon. not yet though.

soooooooooooon.

cramping. December 18, 2008

the past two days its started up again. =/
i’m kind of worried. its enough to keep me up while i’m trying to sleep.
i keep having to check if i’m bleeding. i can’t go to the emergency room because scotts going to be a training which he can’t get out of from 7-5. so im just kinda stuck wondering…