question to mamas or really to anyone. December 12, 2008

okay so everyone on my moms side of the family is named after someone in the family.
like my grandma was named after her mom (first name). and my mom got named after her mom (middle). i got named after my greatgrandma (middle). brother got named after my grandpa (first). and my sister got named after my dads mom (middle)
and theres plenty more.
if i have a girl, everyone wants me to name the girl after my grandma who passed away last year. now i love love love my grandma. she was such an inspiration to me and i miss her so much. SO so much. but with the name mary comes good memories and horrible memories. the memory of my grandmother and the memory of someones sister who did an unspeakable act to someone i’m close to.
i feel so bad. but i don’t want to name my kid mary. or have that middle name….
and with lynn hell my mom doesn’t even like that name. (its her middle name). i just i don’t know…..
i feel so bad. and feel like i’m letting everyone down. especially my grandpa, i guess he was shocked i wasn’t naming the baby after someone….
i mean if you think about it, with aurora, thats sleeping beauty. my grandparents and i shared the love for all things disney. so thats got to count for something right?

i don’t know. i’m so confused. i feel like a bad person for not naming my kid after someone.

stress stress stress. December 12, 2008

first off i’m VERY picky about where my dogs are placed when scott and i go somewhere. after all they are my furchildren.
one person from scotts work said he’d take buster while i’m away at my moms. his family really enjoyed buster last time they had him, buster is such a great dog after all (doesn’t have accidents, plays well with kids, and so on). but now that they had just babysat a dog that messed up their house, they don’t want to watch buster that long.

i’m not going to be able to drive down here and pick up buster and put him some where else. i told scott we will put him in this awesome kennel that i know. but scott flipped out on me.

we don’t have any other choice.
-.-….

romeo is easy because he makes messes from time to time, but my mom is in love with him and doesn’t care really. but she can’t have bub in the house because he sheds like beast (she has like Turkish rugs and antiques all over the house) which i understand fully.

well hopefully this gets resolved.
(btw i’m not asking anyone for help at all, it was just a rant)

i’m sorry but… December 12, 2008

i watch extreme makeover home edition and some of the families just piss me off.

they move into a junker house with like two rooms.
then proceed to have 8 kids.
then complains that money is tight.
and how the house is falling apart.

how irresponsible. yea its cool they want a big family, but if you can’t afford it and its going to effect the kids life in a bad way, you should be banned from having that many kids.
this is why i only want one or two kids. i KNOW that i’m not going to be able to afford more than that.
its called birth control (which you, omgosh, can get for free at alot of places!) or getting your ovaries/testicles removed. !

i’m about 50/50 December 12, 2008

i have no idea if its a boy or girl still, like intuitively. lol. there are signs all around me but for both sexs! i swear i haven’t seen the word (used as towns and such) aurora so much in my life! and all my dreams have girl babies in them. but i’ll be talking to scott and i’ll call the baby he/him and such without thinking, but thats probably due to only having boys in the house and most of my friends over here have boy babies, I HAVE NO IDEA. its going to be such a surprise.

ugh! December 12, 2008

i enjoy getting as much rest as i can. so i can hopefully sleep through some of the nausea.
well it seems that the baby likes stretching my uterious early in the morning, every morning -.-……lol.
so as soon as my husband wakes up the baby is like “mom mom mom GET UP lets go down stairs to watch tv!” LOL. of course then i feel fine once i’m downstairs.