i’m finally pregnant.
i have an awesome husband who cares about me.
the best friends anyone could ask for.
i am happy.
these things are the only things that matter right now.
will not let anything else get me down. 
whatever. October 24, 2008
i’m thinking October 24, 2008
i’m going to take a myspace and blogging break.
till things settledown.
i don’t need all this strain on my body right now.
all i need is all this stress adding up to a real miscarriage.
i’m a good person. i’m there for my friends and i RARELY start shit (and since you all know me, you know its true). just things on the computer get conscrewed and everything goes a different way it was supposed to go. i’ve never gotten into a fight at school or with friends who see me all the time. its always through the computer. i mean i’m an airforce brat most of my friends are far away so its the only way i can stay in touch. it just really sucks because you can’t explain yourself right away and even if you can that might even get conscrewed. i love the internet. it helps me keep in touch with alot of friends but sometimes i could live without it. (btw this isn’t about blaming ANYONE. its about the internet)
i am October 24, 2008
so tired of everything thats going on right now.
i’m tired, i’m nausiated, and frustrated.
i just want to throw the f*cking computer out the window.
so today. October 24, 2008
i’ve had some spotting. just like when i go to the bathroom =/ its still brown. still kinda worried about it.
not really any morning sickness today. and i don’t know why.
i have been cramping a bit. but its not like miscarriage cramps. so thats good LOL.
about the drama. October 24, 2008
some girl decided to chew me out in a bulletion about, lol i don’t know what actually. said some hurtful things for no reason. and i’m pretty sure she feels bad because she hasn’t wrote me again. it has nothing to do with anyone else but everyone keeps bringing up the whole tay thing. we had a debate end of discussion and we are on good terms right now. it really wasn’t a big deal and everyone keeps swinging it way out of proportion (people who havn’t even read it). which i don’t know why lol, i didn’t make fun of anyone or their party (when the whole thing was about making fun of democrats, but i didn’t go there still). it was nothing like that in anyway.
its so annoying! it makes me so frustrated.
actually thinking about getting rid of myspace too. i’m sick of everyone knowing each others business because of it. so i might be considering that.
theres so much drama going on right now. and i don’t know why. maybe everyone is on their period. lol. or pregnant. i just feel things have went way too far.
so…. October 24, 2008
if i sent you a link to this blog. consider yourself lucky.
the select few, who i trust and love!
the drama from the other blog finally collasped all around me, and i’m ready to start a’new!
i’m 7 weeks pregnant to the day! i’m really excited. i have my first appointment on monday, i’m pretty sure. they are doing a bloodtest, which is relieving to me because i’ve wanted one. though i’m pretty sure the baby is okay because what else is making my body feel foreign and old. lol. the nausia sucks. lol really sucks. but i have to say this baby has made my boobs huuuuuge! lol. scott isn’t complaining ;] lols.
anywho. thank you all for being terrific friends and being there for me!
i simply adore every single one of you.
bookmark this site. because i’m not posting the link on my myspace.
